Let me begin by saying, I have a difficult time letting go. This could be the result of growing up with the pressure to perform in academia. More than likely it is a natural tendency exasperated by focus of my childhood. Either way I am a bit OCD, not unlike my Dad. When harnessed this energy and focus can led to great success. When left unchecked it can unravel so many things.
Today I invested in myself: a therapy session and rolfing appointment. I am see and think clearly. I realize that life will always be work, not just my life, but everyone's. I realize that I do in fact dearly love my husband and that we can, with a little work, have many happy and fun years ahead of us.
Today I acknowledge and give myself permission to not have to do everything. Because no one needs me to. What I need to do is live each day with the knowledge that I deserve to find happiness, that I can be loved. And know that I am worthy of this love.
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