Dipping my toes in the water

I’ve quit before, actually more than a few times.

This time I didn’t quit. I choose my family, daughter's, marriage and myself.

Is there fear in my choice? Of course, but it's a wonderful unknown fear that I last felt when falling in love with my husband. It's the kind of nervous fear and excitement that makes you smile when you least expect to.

As for me, I feel amazingly light. I danced on our walk last night in the rain. I feel I have permission to be silly, to pay attention to the birds singing and the wind blowing the ocean spray up to kiss my cheeks.

Where will my well of patience come from bare foot in the kitchen with two lovely little girls at foot? From my heart.

Here's to a year of exploration committing to motherhood everyday all day. No night time meetings hiding out in the driveway attending a conference call from my car. No mad panic morning shuffles racing the clock to get to work for the early morning cross continental check in.

Here's to being present to my life and learning to bring my awareness forward to the people, experiences and places I love.